and i'm not even the jealous type this bitch is just so weird. heres the timeline just so everything's clear: we all went to high school together. bf and i meet freshman year, date for about 2 weeks beginning of 1st semester sophmore year. i was basically so obsessed and in love with him i genuinely didn't believe that he actually liked me and was fucking with me so i ghosted him. he starts dating this girl L middle of second semester. she cheats and they break up by the end of junior year, before summer, then at the beginnng of senior year they date on and off until februrary (grad is that may). i got with him that september after graduation, we've been together over two years now.
she used to snap me weekly, ask me to hangout, ask about my boyfriend, i felt bad for her so i went and hung out with her and got the ick so bad what a fucking freak. on my birthday my bfs mom made a facebook post for my bday and she was the first to like it. and only two people liked it so when you go to the post you see "full name loved this" with her pfp on my bday post. you cant tell me that wasnt on purpose. to be honest it made me cry on my birthday because it's your ex's mom why would you like her shit in the first. place let alone something for ME but she always has to insert herself.
what really did it for me was i was invited to my bf's little sister's grad ceremony and L's little brother was also graduating. after the ceremony everyone was outside taking pictures, and you've gotta understand it was a HUGE crowd with a couple thousand people spread downtown outside. everything's good and happy and lo and behold here comes L! i didn't even see her, my bf did and told me "she's here i don't wanna fucking deal with this on my birthday follow me and dont look behind" and he took me literally running down an alley. apparantly she made convo with his mom and was asking about her him and my bf were doing. i was fed up after and so was my bf so he texted her to back off and she sent this long whiney text saying she just wanted to wish him a happy birthday, and that she told his mom to tell him and hoped she did (she did not LOL). he just blocked her again after that. and then this happened.
my bf and i went fishing with my dad and brother and were just having a good time in a good mood and went to sheetz together. i thought nothing of it, we all bought food and sat down and had a good time talking. well, a few days later, i get a text group text from L and her new best friend S. mind you S is a chill gay guy i used to be friends with. S said something along the lines of "i saw you guys when i was woeking at sheetz and it was so clear (boyfriends name) was trying to show you off in front of me so i'd tell L about it and get jealous". LMAO? please understand that my bf has NO IDEA who S is, he went to school with us maybe a month freshman year and looks completely dif at almost 21. not only that, but they were never friends before a few months ago so there's no way for my bf to know oh that's her new best friend. like i struggle to understand how that was a logical thought process to them.
the funniest part is i didn't even notice S working there neither did he say hi lol. i literally responded "what sheetz are you even talking about" bc i didn't even see him. it honestly made me feel so creeped out. she told me the text from him wrecked her and she cried about it for like weeks so i gave in and facetimed her and played minecraft. she started adding shit to my world tho when i was just trying to show it off and that pissed me off. oh and throughout all of this, she has a serious boyfriend of a year and a half 3 hours away in college. after the facetime she said we should hang out and i said oh yeah def and then haven't talked to her since and she has stopped reaching out thank god. but she is still always the first to view my shit and like it. and her tiktok reposts are wild. they are straight up about missing your ex missing your soulmate missing your last hug with them blah blah blah and commenting stuff like "nobody will ever look at me the way he did" or "i know i fucked up but i didn't deserve this pain" shit like that. yes you did and do deserve all of it.
when i was really struggling with my bf recovering from his porn addiction, he had told me that he honestly thought it was acceptable because when they would have sex if she didnt finish she'd just watch porn and jork it in front of him. to be honest, i had a feeling that sounded like bs like no way a girl would do that to her bf she's supposedly obsessed with. so i went to her house and confided in her and was like "yeah he told me his issue is actually because of you but i feel like theres more to it" and she went "oh no i did do that but like what else was i supposed to do if he couldnt get me there". WHAT! i don't know, communicate, masturbate without watching BBC threesome porn??? (she specifically told me that was her thing). it did help a lot understanding his issue and helped me to stop engaging in ED behaviors but at the same time i was just so disgusted and upset that she did something mindless and it ended up with me developing gastroparesis and stomach ulcers. and arrythmias! she also blamed it on being hypersexual and having trauma. bitch, ME TO, i would never do that.
i think about her more than i'd like to admit but i promise i never gave a fuck about her before she started being weird. like when we were both single we hung out and smoked together and were friends. she reposted something today saying "my chest might be flat but at least my stomach is too" which really made me feel like shit because duh ED but also yeah i have big boobs and a chubbier stomach. my bf insists he doesnt care about my stomach because my weight also goes to the "right places" but the combination of my ED, his porn addiction, and L being 5'3 and maybe 100 pounds. like she has cf so she never fully grew right and is really skinny and small. so i've kind of been spiraling from that. i feel a little better now after getting it out. i hope at least one person reads this and thinks "she's right this chick needs to get over her ex" because sometimes i feel like i'm going crazy. which i definitely am not stable, but i don't think i'm imaginging this and neither does my best friend. shit, it's midnight, i have to be to work at 6am (tim hortons) and i was gonna wake up at 4 to do makeup and stuff. i may just pull an all nighter. goodnight.
